Collections of my poems, Some of them are in Hindi.
Eleven months have flown by
I am growing little by little everyday
learning new skills step by step
First I rolled, then I sat
then I crawled everywhere
Oh my! that was fun
I checked all the corners
But I got bored
the world seems to be on height
So I started standing, and then walking
now I follow my mum and pup everywhere
The fun has only just begun!
I smile, I laugh
I squeal, I talk
I hum, I sing
I bang and I hug
But I can't yet blow my candles
and pop up the balloons
Could you please come
to make my birthday extra fun
as I am turning ONE!
When I first met you ...I was very happy But the special bond of motherhood struck me When you dedicated your first smile to me And when amidst everyone, your eyes stuck at me ..giving me a new identity of being your 'aai'... Often I keep looking at you ...while you are in your deep sleep ...pondering, 'how did I make you?' After all I didn't do a bad job ...you are my little little wonderful creation You adore my bad singing ...where the words are misplaced ...rythms are altered Yet being a sweetheart ...you don't forget to reward me with your cute toothless smile In those long sleepless nights ...when I fall asleep singing you lullabys You are often wide awake ...staring at me mocking, 'aai thaklish kaay?' Being a mum is indeed tiring But seeing you growing every minute ...makes it a cherishable phase of my life I wish to bring all the happiness in your life 'coz even one drop of tears in your eyes breaks my heart apart To my biggest bundle of joy.... Thank you for bringing so much of love in my life...
Yesterday was the big day... as you finally came in our lives But I saw you only for some seconds When doctors placed you on me Your daddy's first reaction was, "look! he has so many hair" And I only cried seeing you so close to me Then they took you away As you were unhappy of leaving your temporary little cozy home I continued seeing you on the other side But i was too tired to keep my eyes wide open So i vaguely remember several doctors checking you Trying to make you comfy in this new world And then we met again In the late evening You identified my voice and my touch Oh! You were so soft your silky hair and your red cheeks Nurses named you Elvis for your dense hair... You looked so settled I waited for you to look at me Even though it was already midnight And while I was leaving You slightly opened your eyes as if you knew that's what I was waiting for... And that was a moment to remember Here I am back to my room seeing other mums holding their bubs singing them lullabies And me writing this sitting in a corner of the room... Your mumma pappa are very much waiting To hold you in our arms To listen to your cries And to continue adoring our little little wonderful creation...
Oh my little champ, I am waiting for you... every day I feel that perhaps today is 'the day' to finally hold you to play with you... I have been seeing you kicking inside me... stretching my tummy in both sides... sometimes it feels like there is a whole new world inside my tummy :D Initially you moved only a little bit We were so excited with those little little kicks... then you started to roll over as if you are bored in the same position, or you are yawning by stretching your arms and legs... I do not know what you feel inside but I know that your heart beats with mine... oh my dear dear munchkin I just want to tell you that you belong to me... these nine months I felt so special everyone loved me the most you brought me all the luck you made me a star... the day isn't very far everyone is so excited I do not know if we are all ready yet but in our hearts we are... Oh my angel I am waiting to see you... to love you lots and to grow with you (again)... ♥♥
I have always heard
that pregnancy time should be enjoyed...
Initially, I wondered what is there to enjoy...
after all... I have never been so tired in my life
I felt like puking all the time
and I was growing bigger and bigger every day
but I was wrong until recently
I can feel you now,
every day if not every moment...
you jump, kick and dance inside me..
My happiness makes you excited,
and my sadness makes you feel sad...
I feel like having two hearts now...
but how can one body has two hearts
two hearts that are so closely connected
this is so funny and strange to me
simply opposite to what I knew from my childhood
I keep on thinking
how would you look like
would you be like your dad or like me...
what would be your hobbies
I know for sure that you will be fond of music
and not any music
but the melodious ones
'coz I know you dance
when your papa sings
me a romantic song... :)
what would be your eating habits
I can guess that you won't like sweets
or would you be a picky eater?
coz I have become one now... ;)
You are a part of me...
sometimes I think how would I feel
after three months
when I will be left with only one heart...
will I feel less excited than
or will be sad than...
I think I am gonna miss your kicks inside me
both the little and the big ones
But then I think I will be fine...
coz my another heart will be right in my arms..
to see and adore
for the rest of my life...
See you soon my little champ...
How many times you fall in love... ...in love with your family, your surroundings, your friends ...in love with your love again and again I fall for him daily... ...when he looks at me ...when he pampers me ...when he adores me ...and when he says I belong to him No wonder why I love him passionately, 'coz that person is always ready to lift me... ...for the mistakes I do ...for the problems I create and after a while he says, "Dear I know you love me very much, ... so don't worry I am not going anywhere. ... I am and will always be with you..." 'coz he knows all I do is... ...for his love and attention That is what "falling in love" means... Fall for the one who will hold you... whenever, wherever you are...
Sometimes I wonder how your childhood charms change with time,
your likings towards movies, chocolates and favorite things...
... get replaced with only one person.
a hug or a super tight squeeze is then more rejuvenating
... than some chocolates or natural sceneries,
a smile or a loud laugh is then more entertaining
... than any movie or entertaining song,
a chat or a day with him is more memorable,
... than any other company.
how one person fills all the gaps,
how he can be all sort of your desires...
how your dreams, your attentions and your favorites,
now depend on only one person,
... who becomes your whole world suddenly...
Nothing else can replace these charms now,
YoU truly are all that I need,
now and forever...
I love our little house, but its haunted without you.. I like to stroll on the streets nearby, but the breeze chills me out finding me alone… I find the settling sun very beautiful but it saddens me when i am alone.. I hear the melody in the air, but it gets so dull when you are not around… everyone everything here is missing you.. come and hold me to see another day a happy day in our sweet little home let us giggle together while passing the streets making fun of each other even in the chilling breeze sing a song with me and i promise to be in rhythm even at night while you are asleep stay with me today and forever… stay with me.. stay with me… ♥♥
A dream, yet to see… with you and me, making a small world… sharing everything, talking endlessly, everything we waited for… seeing each other, exploring us, being the pillars of each other… making love, passionately and madly, as our favorite timepass… A dream with you and me together, May it lasts forever and ever.. ♥♥
Why are your eyes so much expressive, … that they never allow me to leave you for a moment… Why are your eyelashes so talkative, … that they never allow me to blink… Why are your lips so beautiful, … that they never allow me to be away from you.. Why are your conversations so interesting, .. that they never allow me to stop listening to you… Why do you love and care for me so much, … that I have to convince myself, all this is meant for me… Dear! You have filled my life with so much of happiness … that I have nothing left to ask from others… I love you today and will love you forever, … that you are my small little world… I promise to be with you at every step of your life, .. that you will “wish” to have one single moment without me…
The way i feel when u are by my side, …a sense of completion and satisfaction… The way I feel when I am called as your, …a sense of proud and belongingness… The dream that I dream with you gives me, … a sense of togetherness and love… A single thought of possibility of my life with you, … fills my heart with joy and pleasure… There is a long list to tell you just one thing that, …I love u so so so much… ♥
Somewhere in the middle of those conversations, I fell in love with you, From sharing those moments of having tea and snacks, to heavy discussions of ideas, From strangers to lab mates, I started appreciating you.. From post-dinner walks in the campus, to tea-sips together, We grew from lab mates to friends, I started liking you… From spending time in gardens, to going out for dinner and movies, We shared many beautiful moments, I started loving you… From gossiping to sharing secrets, From those dislikes to likes, We spent so much time together, I started my life with you… Somewhere in the middle of those conversations, I fell in love with “us”.. ♥ ♥
तेरी आशिकी ने हमे इस काबिल जो समझा, कि हमे खुद पर अब गुरूर होने लगा… एक शराब की तरह ये मोहब्बत चढ़ने लगी है अब, बस डर है कि किसी शराबी जैसे लडखडाने न लगे हम… ए हमसफ़र! थाम लेना उस पल हमे बस, कि हमने सुना है दो शराबियों से बड़ी गठ्बंदी कोई नहीं…
वो सुबह खुशनसीब थी, वो शाम भी हसीं थी, जब वो हमारे साथ थे.. कुछ यादें संजोई हैं, उन लम्हों की, जब वो हमारे साथ थे… एक पल सा गुजरता था, और शाम हो जाती थी, जब वो हमारे साथ थे, बस देखते ही देखते, सब कुछ बदल गया, क्योंकि वो हमारे साथ हैं..
How many times you fall in love… …in love with your family, your surroundings, your friends.. …in love with your love again and again… I fall for him daily.. …when he looks at me.. …when he pampers me… …when he adores me… …and when he says I belong to him… No wonder why I love him passionately, coz that person is always ready to lift me.. .. for the mistakes I do.. …for the problems I create… and after a while he says, “Dear I know you love me, ..don’t worry I am not going anywhere. …I am with you always..” ‘coz he knows all I do is.. …for his love… …and only for his attention.. That is what “falling in love” mean.. Fall for the one who will hold you.. … whenever, wherever you are.. ♥
For a girl, the best complement is “You are looking like a lady”… For a girl friend, the best compliment is “You are looking pretty”… but for a girl friend yet to be a wife, the best compliment is “I am lucky to have you”.. and for a wife, the best compliment would be “What will I do without you”… I think a girl waits for such compliments for her whole life, ..waiting for the right person to give compliments at right time… and the day she comes across “that” guy, … that is the day when she is ready to be his wife… ♥
in sawaalo bhari raato mein, ye dil khwaabo ki rajai bunta hai.. baichain hokar unse milne ki baat karta hai.. khaamosh hokar bas kuch sapne dekhta hai.. kya kismat ko hai manjoor yahi sochta hai, kuch gumraah paata hai kabhi khud ko.. vo kaunsi raah hogi, jahan dono ke raaste milenge… kuch sawaalo se bhari ye nazre, gumsum si bas bahti rahti hain.. un aankhon ko sochti hain.. jinhe dekhkar kuch sukoon milta hai, in sitaaro ko dekhkar sochti hain, kaash inme se koi sitaara tum hote, ..phir tum jahan bhi hote, roj mein tumhe dekhti, tumse milti.. kuch baatein karti.. vo khaamosh lamhe katte nahi ab.. itne sawaalo se bhari ye saavli raatein, ab katti nahi.. vo khaamoshi kuch zidd si karti hai.. us paar jaane ki, ..us paar jahan koi naa ho, bas tum or mein.. kahin door bahut door..
arsaa beet gaya lagta hai.. jab ek dooze ke haatho mein haath daale baithte the, phir unhi haathon ke sahare hum aage chala karte the… vo shaam nahi aayi.. jab chai ki do chuskiyaan lene, kahin door jaaya karte the.. vo sab beete puraane din se lagte hain, jab baaton mein baatein nikla karti thi, phir unhi baaton mein raatein guzra karti thi.. kuch badla sa lagta hai ye sama ab, jab tu nahi hai or tera saaya nahi hai.. or vo ahsaas nahi hai.. fizaaye bhi kuch badli si lagti hai, vo khushboo nahi ab, vo sparsh nahi hai.. kise dosh de hum ab, bas ye dil ka hi to kusoor hai, jo pal pal aapko hi sochta hai.. or aapke hi khyaalo mein rahta hai.. ♥
When I woke up today, I felt your arms around me, YoUr lips near to my neck, YoUr eye lashes touching my cheeks, YoUr fingers in my hair… .. and a warmth that woke me up, it was not the sun waking me up, it was the glow on your face, …the shine in your eyes, saying I am happy being with you.. …be with me forever.. ♥♥
चाँद से मिलने की ख्वाइश हम रखते थे, रात को सितारों से मिलने की बात हम किया करते थे, शाम होते ही यूँ कुछ शिकायत हम रोज किया करते थे.. वो रुसवाई भरे दिन आज ख़तम हो गए, चाँद और सितारे अब हम साथ जो लिए बैठे हैं..
ये दिल बड़ा नादान है, बड़ी उथल पुथल करता है.. रोज रोज कुछ नया सोचता है.. हर पल कुछ करने की सोचता है.. कभी लगता है .. एक परिंदा में बन जाऊं, पंख फैला कर, ऊचे आसमान के जैसे, तुझे खुशियाँ दूँ.. तो कभी लगता है.. एक फूल बनू में, अपने रंगों से, अपनी खुशबू से, तेरा जीवन महका दूँ.. कभी सोचती हूँ.. एक मछली बन जून में, जल जीवन की तरह, पानी की गहराइयों जैसे, शीतलता दूँ तुझे.. मनन तो करता है वो सब करूँ, जो तुझे एहसास दिलाये.. “तू जहाँ जहाँ चलेगा.. मेरा साया साथ होगा… ” ♥ ♥
Those fresh mornings, those busy evenings, and those special nights, when we were exploring each other.. when our souls were mingling I get to know a new world, the world with just YoU and ME, The glimpses of that world, is still with me in bits and bytes and remind me of… the faith which I see in YoUr eyes, the love which increases my heart beat, the care which I feel from your touch.. and make me realize that.. every moment with you was so special always.. and we will be together forever, no matter how far we are… ♥ ♥
कुछ छुपाया है हमने अपनी इस मुट्ठी में, चाहत तो है वो मुट्ठी हमेशा बंद ही रहे, और जब खुले तो बस किसी जुगनू की तरह… तेरा नाम जो लिखा है वो चमक उठे.. ♥
तेरी बाहों में गुज़रे वो पल, वो हसीं लम्हे हमे याद आते हैं… तू और तेरा साया ही तो है, जो हमे किसी के होने का एहसास दिलाता है… कभी रुसवा ना होना मुझसे ऐ मेरे हमसफ़र, तू है तो इस दुनिया से कोई शिकायत नहीं करते फिर हम…
kareeb to aa mere hamsafar, ki isi waqt ki kabse talash thi mujhe.. itna kareeb ki mein jaan na paun ki teri or meri saansen kaunsi hain, ki tera hi hissa banne ki chaah thi kabse… apne sparsh se ahsaas karana ki tum mere ho, ki is lamhe ka kabse intezaar tha mujhe… dekhne de aaj khudko in aankhon mein teri, ki koi sawaal na rahe phir aankhon mein meri.. kah sakun ki tere rang mein rang chuki ab mein, ki un rango ko batora hai kabse mene … kareeb to aa mere ab, or itna kareeb ki koi do jaan na bol sake hume phir se… ♥ ♥
socho ki ek chhota sa ashiyaan ho apna, jisme…. baahon ki chaadar ho, seene ki deewaaren ho, aankhon ki chamak ki roshni ho, hotho ki narmi ho, pyaar bhare rango ki kali ho, or sparsh ki garmi ho… Phir chaahe sukh ya dukh.. chaahe ho barsaat, mehfuz hi rahenge hum apne is asshiyaane mein hamesha…
Looking at the sky, I always thought of you… Seeing the twinkling stars, I wanted to shine for you… Feeling your sadness, I wished to be sad for you… The brightness in your eyes, I desired to be that reason… The fear of life in your heart, I felt the same of loosing you… Hoping for a day that you will realize, That I always wished to share my small paradise with you…
वो भी दिन थे जब किसी गुडिया को देख मैं खुश हो जाती थी.. सुबह शाम गुड्डा गुड्डी खेलती थी, कीचड़ में कूदकर मन प्रसन हो जाता था.. बारिश के पानी में कागज़ की नाव चलाकर, मैं भी सात समुन्दर पार चली जाती थी.. कभी किसी चिड़िया को देख, उड़ने की इच्छा होती थी.. तो कभी कोयल को सुनकर, कूकने का मन होता था… तो कभी इन्द्रधनुष को देख, रंगों की अहमियत जान पड़ती थी… वो छोटी छोटी खुशियाँ, मम्मी को बताना.. वो थोड़ी सी डाट पर रो जाना, और फिर मम्मी का सब काम छोड़कर, मुझे गोदी में लेकर कहानियाँ सुनाना, मेरे रोते हुए गीले चहरे को चुमते चुमते सुखा कर देना.. वो बचपन याद आता है.. काश मैं आज फिर से छोटी बन जाऊं, फिर से गुडिया से खेलूं, फिर से मिटटी खाऊं, फिर मम्मी को गोदी में सो जाऊं, बिना किसी डर, बिना कुछ सोचे, बस चलती जाऊं…
दिल का उदास होना होटों का चुप रहना… धडकनों की बढ़ी रफ़्तार… क्या कहती हैं ये सब… कहती है , ये प्यारा सा जो सजन दिया है हमे.. उसके चहरे की ख़ुशी हमेशा सलामत रहे… हम अगर कभी ना हो, तो ख्याल रखना उनका… उनकी आँखों में आंसू का कोई अंश ना हो… उनके दिल में कोई उदासी ना हो… उनके चहरे पर कोई मायूसी ना हो… क्यूंकि… उन्ही को देखकर जी रहे हैं हम… उन्ही को पाकर खुश हैं अब हम… वो कैसे हमारी दुनिया बन गए… कुछ अंदाजा ना हुआ हमे… पर इस छोटी ही दुनिया में खुश हैं अब हम… जीने दो अब हमे अपने इस साजन के साथ … क्यूंकि इस प्यार की कब से तलाश थी हमे…
दिल की नज़र ने यूँ दस्तक दी नींदों में मैं हस्ती हूँ अब… ख्वाबो में कोई आता है अब … ये इश्क भी अजीब है यारो कभी लफ्ज़ की इसमें कमी नहीं .. कभी हमने उनको हँसा दिया.. तो कभी उन्होंने हमे हँसा दिया.. कभी उनकी आँख में ख़ुशी के आंसू चलके तो कभी हम ख़ुशी में रोने लगे … जाने क्या कहना चाहती थी उनकी निगाहें तब धडकनों की बढ़ी रफ़्तार से… हम उनकी और देख ही नहीं पाए .. हम ना कुछ समझे पर ये दिल सब समझ गया.. समझ गया की ये दस्तक उसी की है .. जो जिंदगी को जिंदगी बना गया…
कुछ सुकून सा मिलता है उस शक्स को देखकर कुछ उम्मीद सी जगती है उनके एहसास से… एक हलचल सी होती है उनके स्पर्श से… दिल में तूफ़ान सा उमड़ता है उनके प्यार से… अब क्या बताएं हम इस दिल-ए-कशमकश का… पास रहकर ये तूफ़ान नहीं संभालता तो दूर रहकर ये भावनाओं की आंधी नहीं थमती…